It’s 9AM and the phone says, “Good morning”
like I haven’t been up for hours hoping the same thing
and I’m not with you
but I’m wondering when I’ll get to be
So we get up and start the routine
Burping peppers, I grew too many
Brushing together, spit down the same basin
Look in the mirror
and it’s me you’re facing
Hot chai reminds it’s not the worst it could be
Those words, “missing you, but finally free”
and, “With friends like these, who needs anemones?”
A sparkless charm as the cars drive by
and suddenly I am better off alive
all those times I could’ve died
If only we could simplify
or quantify the chaos in my aching mind
where the floral patterns erase time
and the vanishing ghosts are fine
We’re ok, and better off
yet something in the way tells us we’re not
so I spend some time fighting in reverse
Reliving history to undo the curse
Finding my light and believing it factual
Realizing my existence might be practical
And the war is about who and never about where
Someone draws a line and just doesn’t care
Migration of the soul, no proper footing
because of how much I loved when you were there
There’s nothing wrong with a love like this
except when it eats you like a fat demon pig
and spits you out and you don’t know where to begin
So I start looking for what the French call “Fin”
Clear to some,
but not from where I came in
It makes me weak, but I wish it easier,
and some days I wish it easier and easier,
yet I’d still rather be here
up to my eyes in hot and dirty chai
with so much love I could cry and only cry
That could be why
I’m doing it all the time
Like it’s going out of style,
or I need 10,000 hours
World’s worst Dharma
“That girl’s out to harm ya”
“Don’t say I didn’t warn ya”
or maybe it’s just karma
Never aligned, just intertwined
Criss-cross paths and knotted ties
In it for yours or in it for mine
but never at the same time
Memories
they steal my oxygen
but without you, there’s still me
Starcrossed, never meant to be
On our way to different galaxies
you just might catch me
sipping on a chai tea
Written by Randa 