It’s 9AM and the phone says, “Good morning”

like I haven’t been up for hours hoping the same thing

and I’m not with you

but I’m wondering when I’ll get to be

So we get up and start the routine

Burping peppers, I grew too many

Brushing together, spit down the same basin

Look in the mirror

and it’s me you’re facing

Hot chai reminds it’s not the worst it could be

Those words, “missing you, but finally free”

and, “With friends like these, who needs anemones?”

A sparkless charm as the cars drive by

and suddenly I am better off alive

all those times I could’ve died

If only we could simplify

or quantify the chaos in my aching mind

where the floral patterns erase time

and the vanishing ghosts are fine

We’re ok, and better off

yet something in the way tells us we’re not

so I spend some time fighting in reverse

Reliving history to undo the curse

Finding my light and believing it factual

Realizing my existence might be practical

And the war is about who and never about where

Someone draws a line and just doesn’t care

Migration of the soul, no proper footing

because of how much I loved when you were there

There’s nothing wrong with a love like this

except when it eats you like a fat demon pig

and spits you out and you don’t know where to begin

So I start looking for what the French call “Fin”

Clear to some,

but not from where I came in

It makes me weak, but I wish it easier,

and some days I wish it easier and easier,

yet I’d still rather be here

up to my eyes in hot and dirty chai

with so much love I could cry and only cry

That could be why

I’m doing it all the time

Like it’s going out of style,

or I need 10,000 hours

World’s worst Dharma

“That girl’s out to harm ya”

“Don’t say I didn’t warn ya”

or maybe it’s just karma

Never aligned, just intertwined

Criss-cross paths and knotted ties

In it for yours or in it for mine

but never at the same time

Memories

they steal my oxygen

but without you, there’s still me

Starcrossed, never meant to be

On our way to different galaxies

you just might catch me

sipping on a chai tea

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